It's already the last quarter of the year and I thought I was improving already when I made my first post last January, ha-ha! (Boo, Balots!)
If I haven't seen my friend's posts, I wouldn't realize that it's been such a looong time since I wrote here.
A lot of things happened to me for the past months actually, there may be some bad news, but more importantly, there are so many good things as well, more than the bad. Needless to say, I am so blessed! I hope to write one day the experiences and "bloopers" I had this year. One day...he-he...
Anyways, this is just a "paramdam" post just to let you know that this blog, though inactive for quite a long time, is still active, he-he...
For the meantime, I'm closing this post by leaving you a song to listen to. This is the song I long to sing someday (wink, wink). Here's Slowly by Klarisse De Guzman of The Voice of the Philippines
This is my first blog for the year 2013 so I just wanna greet first everyone a
HAPPY AND PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR!!!
HAHAHA! Guess I'm improving because last year, my first blog was in August and now, January, the first month of the year. Hurray!!!Good job, Balotski! ü
2012 had been a roller-coaster ride of emotions for me. There's a lot of ups and downs along the way, bumpy roads here and there and sometimes, a road that leads nowhere. I even reached the point wherein I should decide whether to stay or go somewhere else. But then, in all those circumstances, wherein everything was so unsure, SOMEONE whispered in my ear and told me to stand still and give my weary heart a rest. That all I need was to TRUST HIM for HE has better plans for me. That's what I did. I focused my mind to Him and allowed Him to once again take over my life. I realized that no matter what you do, if it was not God's plan for you, it will never happen. I know that there are things that still burdens me even until now but with Father God's help, I will be able to let go and move forward.
So, here's to a better year ahead for all of us, a life full of LOVE and HAPPINESS, a GOD-centered life and most of all, a life without regrets....
A friend once asked me, "where's your halo?" I knew why she asked me that... I was in a situation where everyone could understand if I lose my temper, but that didn't happen. They said I have so much control with my emotion. I guess, I just want to believe that not all battles should be fought and with that, allow me to say my piece in a way that many would understand, the "becky" way! ☺
I choose my battles wisely. Kung di naman kapatul-patol dedma na lang. In the end, 'pag di mo pinatulan, sila din naman ang talunan dahil wala silang napatunayan at napagtagumpayan. Pag pinatulan ko pa sila, bumaba na level ko, humaba pa airtime nila sa buhay ko. Kung masaya sila na lagi kang pinupuna, bayaan na, at least, naging instrumento ka pa ng kaligayahan nya eh di mas maganda. Saka baka kulang ang araw nila na di ka nakikita, o eh di sikat ka pa! Imagine, bawat araw at oras binabantayan at chine-check ka, astig! Daig mo pa ang may twitter account na may avid follower.
Ako kasi ang paniniwala ko, para di na lumaki ang gulo, dedma na lang, sasawa din 'yun pero kung feel ka pa rin niya awayin eh di gow lang! Basta ang importante, hindi ka nakikipag-away. Saka lagi mo tatandaan na walang nag-aaway na mag-isa. Baliw lang ang ganun! So kung feel nya pa rin magpakabaliw eh di bayaan mo, walang basagan ng trip. Trip nya 'yun eh, kung dun ang fulfillment nya bilang tao eh wag mo ipagkait sa kanya yun. Hindi karuwagan ang pananahimik at di pagpatol. At the end of the day, importante eh ginawa mo lang kung ano ang tama at kung ano ka talaga bilang tao.
Basta ako, trip ko na lang magpaka-positive everyday. Aaminin ko, mahirap panindigan pero dang-sarap ng pakiramdam na naging mabuti ka sa araw na 'yun. Life is a journey and along the way, puro struggles and obstacles 'yan. So bakit 'yun ang papansinin mo di ba? Sabi nga, enjoy the view! Every morning is a blessing so be grateful everyday. It's about doing the right choice. Ask yourself these questions: Am I doing the right thing or not? Am I being a good person when I do this or not? And more importantly, am I pleasing in the eyes of the Lord or not? Everything is a choice. So 'yun ang stand ko ngayon. And honestly, masarap sa pakiramdam.
I'm not saying na i-achieve mo o gawing goal magpaka-santo or santa pero walang masama kung 'yun talaga ang trip mo. Pero hindi ba mas masarap 'yung feeling na naging blessing ka sa buhay ng iba? Kasi wala naman tayo mapapala kung napaiyak natin o nasaktan natin ang isang tao di ba? Pagtanda ba natin, maipagmamalaki ba natin sa mga anak natin na, si ganito inaway ko, si ganyan nasaktan ko at si ano, ayun napaiyak ko! Aba, proud ka pa? Pero gets mo point ko? Lahat naman tayo aalis sa mundong ibabaw eh di hanggang maaga, 'yung maganda na 'yung itanim natin. Legacy. Imagine,ka-chikahan mo na si San Pedro sa langit eh ang haba pa rin ng hair mo dito sa earth dahil ang daming magandang sinasabi tungkol sa'yo ng mga taong naiwan mo dito. Pak na pak ka dun teh! Panalo!
So be grateful and not hateful. Be positive always and ignore all the negative elements around you (meaning haters Ü). Always believe in the way of a good heart! ♥
God bless us!
P.S. Sabi nga ni Pareng Morrie (Morrie Schwartz,RIP), once you learn how to die, you learn how to live. I agree. So, 'wag na tayong maging nega at hater kasi today might be the "time" (death), naku minus pogi and ganda points kay Lord yun! =)
I heard, that you're settled down.
That you, found a girl and your married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things, I didn't give to you.
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold it back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited.
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over.
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best, for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah.
You'd know, how the time flies.
Only yesterday, was the time of our lives.
We were born and raised in a summer haze.
Bound by the surprise of our glory days.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over.
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you say:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead", yay.
Nothing compares, no worries or cares.
Regret's and mistakes they're memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remembered you say:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yay yeh yeah.
♠♥♠
‘Heard this song “Someone Like You” by Adele. Sad song but as I grasped the lyrics, I ended up smiling. Few years ago, in one way or another, those were the exact words hidden in my heart, “Nevermind, I’ll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you too. Don’t forget me, I beg…” Those were the things I wanted to say. The exact emotions I kept.
But now, it’s a different story. Things have changed. People change. I for one, changed. Looking back, it still amazes me how I was able to recover and rebuild myself again because at that time, I was so broken. Alive but dead. I may be one of those brokenhearted who wished not to wake up again because the pain was so unbearable. But now, I have come to realize that everything happened for a reason. It was part of Father God’s divine plan for me. I had to go through all those pains, anger and heartaches. It took me quite a while before I accepted what happened.
It was a beautiful story with a beautiful beginning but it has to end. Some good things never last cliché? Maybe yes but maybe not. Now, I’d like to say that maybe it was just a prelude to our individual stories. He had found his one great love while I remain waiting until Father God reveals His plans for me. Before, a lot of questions were in my mind such as what went wrong, what happened and so many why’s. I can’t believe at that time that he’s capable of hurting someone, especially me. More than a girlfriend, we used to be the best of friends. But eventually, I realized that no matter how harsh or gentle he did it, I would still end up hurting. It was something he can’t avoid even if he tried. Getting hurt was inevitable. In all fairness with him, I want to believe he really tried that’s why our relationship lasted for almost four years. It was not perfect. There were bumps and forks on the road, but all in all, it was four good years.
He may not know this, but I somehow admire his courage of getting out from his safe zone and what he used to call home to go after his real happiness. But their stories are not mine to tell. They’re the only ones who can narrate the events that took place in their union.
As for me, I’m still waiting for that someone that Father God chose to be “God’s Best” for me. But right now, while waiting, I just enjoy the gift of being single to the fullest. I’m giving myself the time to explore the things I wanted to do. Learn to be a better individual each day and be the best person I can be. I have all the time to grow and I don’t want to waste that given opportunity. I want to love myself more. So when the right time comes, my “God’s Best” will see me as a whole person. And afterwards, it is now my time to start my own “happily ever after” story. ☺
